Goodbye, 2009. It was a pleasure.

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."

I remember welcoming 2009 with a broken heart. I remember it very well. But when I think about the broken heart, or the man who broke my heart, I immediately thought of the other man who makes me happy. Who gives me a huge stupid grin on my face, who makes me feel like my whole body is shaking, who makes me feel loved. And don't forget about the goosebumps! He's my best friend, my partner in crime, my teenage-anger musician, my hot English man, my lover and more importantly, the love of my life.

The first few months are the months of misery and love all together. I admit, I was thinking about the past quite often, but the present and future gets me excited as well. I was torn between the two, I was confused. But I decided to let it all go, and stick with the present. Because I know that the present has an interesting offer about the future and it is something quite special. This particular man has accomplished on stealing my heart, all of it, and I have wished nothing but to never give it back.

Besides the perfect love story, this year also has been really interesting. I found myself moving back to Indonesia for University, taking Law as a major. I found myself struggling to live, as I'm living on my own now. I got my own place and rules which I found very amusing. I've had a thought, way back when, where I didn't ever want to live all by myself. I don't ever want to be far from home, all the I-don't-have-to-set-an-alarm-to-wake-up-in-the-morning routine, or the when-I'm-hungry-I-can-always-have-food time. But the most important is the I-can-ask-my-parents-for-cash-whenever-I'm-broke ability. Actually, now that I live alone, I can still do that. They wouldn't let me go without cash, and I ever so grateful because of that.

Let's go back to the perfect love story. Despite the rough times, this year has been incredibly beautiful because of that special man. We went through a few of rough times, of course. But who are we to ask for a perfect life? Everybody goes through that, it can't all be beautiful. I'm more than grateful that we both accept it and move on with it. Neither of us can be considered as a child any longer, so I don't ever get worried something horrific will happen to us just because we can't handle our emotions. Besides, arguing sometimes can be quite fun at the end of it. If you know what I mean.

My 2009 was filled with Dean Parker, the quite special man. He is the man of my dreams, and all I can think about while writing this blog is him. I can not ask for more beautiful stories, because he gave me the best ones. I've known him for years, but 2009 is the best year because I get to call him mine, and from that year on wards. 2009 is the beginning of my new perfect little life. I will cherish those joyful days I experienced always. I am looking forward for those years that are yet to come.

As for DP, I can never thank you enough for making me happiest when I'm at lowest. You are right, we are destined to be together. We have been wasting all these years before, but without it, I doubt we would ever be where we are right now. Thank you for making 2009 not just another year, thank you for making it special. I'm sure you wouldn't mind finishing the book you are writing in, me. You have wrote the first chapter of my life, our life, so please finish the book with a happy ending. As for me, I would be more than happy to help you write and complete this book of our life. I hope you won't ever get enough of me. Happy new year.

I love you so very much.

I've moved to Bandung.

Hi.

I know I haven't been updating this bloody blog for such a long time. It's not really because I got no time, I had all the time I want but I just don't know what to write. Anyway, I've moved to Bandung for Uni. I got accepted in University of Padjadjaran in Bandung with Law as my course. I've been living here for a couple weeks now, living alone and that. It's pretty fun in here, to be fair, but I really miss home and my family. Especially my boyfriend, I can't wait until he come over this end of year.

That's about it, really. I've told you I don't know what to say. Bye. xx

I love Jakarta.

'Ello there!

I know I haven't been writing any blog lately, I can't be fucked really. Knowing that no one actually reads my blog, and no one gives a fuck. I still sometime miss the feel of writing whatever I want, in my private blog. So I come by sometimes to check on my blog (no point really) and today I've decided I will write something here!

I went to Jakarta on the 3rd of June and just got back last night the 15th of June. I went for a test for a University in Bandung, and of course, a little holiday for myself. So, the first thing that came to my mind when I arrived at Soekarno-Hatta International Airport was to Tweet. Yes, I am addicte to Twitter. This is my Twitter, do follow, lol! So yeah, I went to the sim card booth and got myself a new Indonesian number and set up the 3G connection right away! When everything is done, I went to A&W restaurant to wait for my friends to come and pick me up. So I get myself a cup of coffe, lit a cigarette, and Tweet all the way!

I text my parents and close friends to tell them I have arrived safely! Different replies filled my phone's inbox. Most of them are funny texts, lol! After a long wait at the restaurant, they finally came! Ivan, Ryan and Drinna. Those are my bestest friends ever! They're always there for me, oh how I miss them! Fuckkk. But anyways, we had lunch and played UNO before we left. We were there for quite sometime, because we were hungry already on the way back, lol! So we decided to eat dinner at Mas Mono restaurant! After dinner, we all left for home.

We went to Bandung on the 6th of June cause I got a test at University Padjajaran on the 7th. I thought we coud go there on the 7th, but the test will be starting at 8AM. So we left Jakarta at 7PM on the 6th of June. It was Me, Drinna, Ivan, Ryan, Cenna and Aldilla. It was so much fun, we didn't sleep at all. Not even me, the one who's got a test in the morning! But it's ok, we managed to be there on time. During the test, I kinda fell asleep a few times, it was embarassing because I was sitting in front LOL. The test lasted until 1PM.

After the test, we went for a little round in Bandung. Looking at Factory Outlets who sells branded clothes and other stuff for a really cheap price. We didn't get anything, LOL! We also stopped at Circle K (a convenient store) to get drinks then we hung out at the hotel's swimming pool and played UNO. We left for Jakarta at 8PM.

If I write down all the things that happened whilst I was there, this post would be so fucking long. But I'm a lazy bastard, so I'm not going to write anymore. But instead, I'm gonna spam you with pictures from when I was in Jakarta. I will put a little caption below the picture so you will know what was happening and which is which. Enjoy!

Ryan, Ivan, Drinna and me right after they picked me up!

I love her!

Playing UNO at Burger & Grill restaurant.

Ayu and I, at Starbucks Thamrin.

Tasya, Drinna and me at Kelapa Gading Mall for Junior high reunion.

I miss them all, great lot!

Best friends!

I've got lots of other pictures to post but can't be fucked right now really. Time flies by just like that, 2 weeks seemed like 2 days. I miss each of everyone of you who has spent time with me when I was there. I shall see you soon! I hope I get accepted at the University! Wish me luck! x

Oh how I miss them so much.

The loneliness is tearing me apart, it tears me up.

Do you know the feeling of emptiness? Have you ever had a feeling that is so much more than loneliness? It's the one that can't be cured just like that, no matter how much you go out and socialize with people, you still feel empty. I have it now. All I wanna do is cry and just be alone but at the same time, I want some companion. Not just for-the-sake-of-it or hang out company, but deeper than that. This is complicated, I can't even put words to define how I feel. Nevermind.

Listening to me get all depressed is not fun, so let's now move onto the next thing. Mysterious guys. Yep, guys who often sit in the corner, alone. Guys who eats alone in the canteen. Guys who look like they have secrets. Guys who often has long hair, angry looking face, and are introverts. I am a sucker for them. I find them really interesting, and attractive. I'm probably not the only one, but I don't know any girls who likes them.


Tim Riggins from Friday Night Lights and Warren Peace from Sky High. I like the characters better than the actors. Not that they are not good looking or nice, don't get me wrong. But as I said, I like mysterious guys like Tim and Warren which I'm sure the real actors are not so much like them. Then again, I wouldn't know for sure. To be honest, I don't really know anyone who are exactly like them. Because in real life, they would be introverts, and I am a bit of annoying, so they would want to be as far apart from me as possible.

I have joined a new social site called Dailybooth. This site allows you to take pictures with your webcam. I find it very much interesting, because if you take one picture everyday for one year, you can see how much you've changed and I think the idea of the website alone is pretty cool! You can also follow people so when they took new pictures you will get notifications on your homepage. Click here to take a look at my page. Don't forget to sign up because it's so much fun! Oh, and also, follow me and follow my Twitter too.

I don't know what to ramble about anymore. So I'm going to bail out of here.